On NOT Eating

eating is way sexier than not eating is. this is a truth as i know it on my first day of a spontaneous fast.

i woke up this morning, for many reasons, feeling it was time to cleanse a little bit. time to STOP eating for a while so my body had a chance to rid itself of built up toxins. and not only did i decide to give up eating, but coffee and wine as well. sigh. fun.

so today...i poured myself a piping hot cup of green tea and stirred in a little raw honey. i made my kids their lunches and fed the baby. there wasn't much food in the house so avoiding breakfast was easy.

i was forced, because i have a family to feed and cook for, to go grocery shopping. egad. my poor tummy was rumbling and tight. everything from baby bok choy and broccoli rabe to raw steak tips and gorgonzola cheese seemed to be whispering my name lasciviously in my ear. i kept trying to convince myself to just do a raw foods fast so i could at least have my way with the green sexy leafy things. but i know that inner devil voice. i know how to not listen to it. i persevered through the day. but that voice...

i'm so addicted to eating.

i made my kids some "not rice" crispy treats and as i pressed the gorgeous marshmallow & butter covered psillium into the pan my hands became coated with it...i wanted, with all of my heart, to lick each finger clean. but i didn't. sigh.

tonight...for supper i am making my new favorite mashed potato recipe with some gravied up steak and green beans for the fam. let's see how i fair with that one. the beans are what are calling to me most...with a little EV olive oil and bragg's... at least it'd not a steak i want to shove down my throat.

i am planning to not eat today, tomorrow...perhaps three days total and then do a raw diet for a week or so.